Lyrics.

Gotta love Modest Mouse.

Woke up this morning and it seemed to me, that every night turns out to be A little more like Bukowski. And yeah, I know he's a pretty good read. But God who'd wanna be? God who'd wanna be such an asshole? God who'd wanna be? God who'd wanna be such an asshole? Well we sat on the edge of the river, the crowd screamed, "Sacrifice the liver!" If God takes life, he's an Indian giver. So tell me now why, you'll tell me never. Who would wanna be? Who would wanna be such a control freak? Well who would wanna be? Who would wanna be such a control freak? Well see what you wanna see. You should see it all.Well take what you want from me. You deserve it all.Nine times out of ten our hearts just get dissolved.Well I want a better place or just a better way to fall.But one time out of ten, everything is perfect for us all. Well I want a better place or just a better way to fall. Here we go! If God controls the land and disease, keeps a watchful eye on me, If he's really so damn mighty, my problem is I can't see, well who would wanna be? Who would wanna be such a control freak? Well who would wanna be? Who would wanna be such a control freak? Evil home stereo, what good songs do you know? Evil me, oh yeah I know, what good curves can you throw? Well all that icing and all that cake, I can't make it to your wedding, but I'm sure I'll be at your wake. You were talk, talk, talk, talkin' in circles that day, when you get to the point make sure that I'm still awake, OK? Went to bed and didn't see why every day turns out to be a little bit more like Bukowski. And yeah, I know he's a pretty good read. But God who'd wanna be? God who'd wanna be such an asshole?

That's all I have to say about today. Haha.

Bittersweet.

Today my family took my oldest brother to the MTC.
I'm bummed out that he wont be here for two years, especially because he is the only brother I actually get along with...
But I really did enjoy his company..
and I never really let him know how much he means to me.
I wanted to, but the words didn't come out.
All I could do was cry when he gave me his last hug before leaving.
:/

But at the same time, I am SO jealous he gets to go to New Zealand and escape America for awhile.
I know he'll do a good job. He usually does no matter what it is that he does.

Now, I'm off to work.
Hopefully it's a laid back day.
I've had my share of emotions for the day.

Weird.

So, I decided that I'm probably going to use this blog thing as a journal more than anything, I doubt people will read it... but if they do..
It's whatever.
My life is pretty open as it is anyways.
Hmmm.. Journal entry #1....

Today has been a really interesting day.
Barack Obama was sworn in as America's 44th president...
My brother leaves for the MTC tomorrow preparing for his Mission in Auckland, New Zealand...
I moved all my stuff from my room into his room in the basement...
I went job hunting for a second job...
and that just about sums up my whole day.

January so far has been a pretty quiet month.
I've had a lot of time to think, sleep, and just relax for the most part.

I've made the usual New Years resolutions, but I think this year I may actually follow through...
(:

We'll see!