What a dream.

Before I forget, I wanted to write down the crazy dream I had last night.

- I was an actress, on the set of a movie called Running With the Boys. I was starring with Matthew Lillard and Heath Ledger. And in the plot of this movie, I had been a girl who moved into a place I wouldn't fit in with any of the girls my age, so all through an eventful summer I was simply "running with the boys" I would go on crazy midnight summer adventures with them and they all teased me and called one of the guys, but towards the end of filming, Heath Ledger's character grabbed my hand while we were standing by a fire, he saw I was listening to my iPod. The song was " Here Comes the Sun" by The Beatles. And he said "I love this song!" as he grabbed one of the ear buds and put one in his ear and we danced slowly and very close to the fire as we softly sang to me, it was practically a whisper, and I began to close my eyes.

Well, after I had opened my eyes I was no longer with him on the set, but I was a few years older watching the movie on a little TV in a small run down apartment in SLC with my friend Mariah. She looked at me and asked if I ever missed that. And then I realized that I could never relive that memory because Heath had passed away.

I became upset, and left the apartment to go on a lonely walk throughout downtown Salt Lake. Not too long after I started walking my cell phone rang, with a private number. I answered, and the Heath Ledger version of Here Comes the Sun was playing, I thought it was some kind of sick joke, and I yelled to the other end that what they were doing wasn't funny to me at all. Then, what I thought was the recording started laughing, and continued to sing, there was no way it was a recording. I looked all around to see if someone was watching me, and after searching the buildings around me, I saw Heath standing behind a window where he was pulling back the curtain, it was the only light on at 3 am in SLC and I screamed in joy "I knew you were still here!!" And before I could say anything to him, he disappeared from the window, and no one was on the other line. I immediately broke into tears and sat in the nearest park bench.

Then I felt an overwhelming sense of comfort as I was held tightly in a warm familiar hug. The man whispered "Little darling, it's alright." (part of the lyrics) and I looked up to Heath sitting next to me smiling, and all I could feel was an incredible sense of peace. And he said with a beautiful smile " I'll be checking in with you now that we live in the same place." -

I woke up from this dream in tears, and I didn't even know why. It was just so emotional for me, and while I was eating breakfast, I searched Heath Ledger- here comes the sun in google, and it came up as one of the first results that it was one of his favorite songs, and it was played at his funeral.

I'm still a little shocked about it all, even though it was only a dream, it's really made me think.

ANYWAYS, enough writing for today. :p

the end!